DEMI Lovato has admitted she still uses “alcohol and marijuana” with “balance” two years after she suffered a near-fatal drug overdose.
The 28-year-old is set to address the incident for the first time ever in her YouTube docuseries – Demi Lovato: Dancing with the Devil – detailing how the events unfolded and her battle with sobriety.
Speaking candidly about how she manages, Demi revealed she can’t restrict herself completely as she believes it would set her up for failure.
Clarifying she does not use the opioid drugs that caused her 2018 overdose, the Camp Rock star revealed she does not restrict alcohol and marijuana.
In an interview with Glamour for their March edition, the ex-Disney star said that balance has helped her eating disorder and she doesn’t believe in a “one-size-fits-all” solution to recovery.
Discussing how she broached the subject with her team, Demi told the publication: “I called [my recovery case manager, Charles Cook] and was like, ‘Something’s not right. I’m living one side of my life completely legalizing [balance] and this other side following a program that’s telling me if I slip up, I’m going to die.'”
When Cook asked how she wanted to proceed, the pop star said: “I think I want to try this balance thing in the substance side of my life too.”
While Demi’s management company were naturally concerned, they supported the actress with her decision.
She revealed: “…they were like, ‘She deserves this opportunity to make that choice for herself.’ So I did.
“A one-size-fits-all solution does not work for everybody,” she continued. “What I’m encouraging people to do is just make choices for themselves.
“Autonomy, for me, is what changed my life.”
The raven haired beauty recognizes that her approach towards healing isn’t for everyone.
Ahead of the launch of her YouTube series, Demi spoke to Diane Guerrero on her ‘Yeah No, I’m Not OK’ podcast about the complexity of her drug use.
She said: “In the same way it almost killed me, it saved my life at times, because there were times that I dealt with suicidal ideations.
“I turned to those coping mechanisms because I genuinely was in so much pain that I didn’t want to die and I didn’t know what else to do.”
“Any time that you suppress a part of yourself, it's gonna overflow.”
In Dancing with the Devil, Demi will open up about the severity of her health issues, in particular her near-fatal overdose in 2018.
In a trailer for the series, she says: "I had crossed a line that I had never crossed before … I snapped. I had three strokes.
“I had a heart attack. My doctors said that I had five to 10 more minutes [to live].”
Following the overdose Demi spent nearly two weeks in the hospital before undergoing treatment at a rehab facility and sober living facility for months.
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