Kody Brown: I Never Should Have Married Meri!

Kody Brown has some regrets, folks.

And they, sadly, have a lot to do with Meri Brown, his marriage to Meri Brown and basically all things these days related to Meri Brown.

On this past Sunday’s episode of Sister Wives, Kody and Meri visited a therapist in Las Vegas.

It was made clear this session was booked at the behest of Meri, who has openly been unhappy in her relationship for years and years now.

Most of the chatter around this installment in the last couple days has centered around Meri’s self-proclaimed death sentence in regard to the union, as she said on air that her romance with Kody is dead.

“The relationship between he and I is gone, it’s dead, it’s over,” Meri said back when the episode was filmed.

This was the clearest the long-serving spouse has ever been on the subject.

She and Kody got married in 1990, but then divorced soon after Kody met his fourth wife, Robyn, so that he could legally adopt Robyn’s kids.

Meri and Kody share one daughter, Mariah, themselves.

And while most of the attention paid to this emotional episode in the time since it aired has honed in on Meri’s candid admission, it’s worth noting what Kody said about the marriage.

“Meri and I have just soft-pedaled this for so long,” he told viewers of why he agreed to speak to a counseling, adding:

“Meri said, ‘Hey can we get a little deeper?’ I think she’s felt like we needed to make a step deeper into our relationship.

“Honestly, it’s time. It’s time for us to actually take the temperature of our relationship.”

That temperature appears to be ice cold at the moment.

Based on Meri’s recent Instagram messages, she may finally be ready to walk away from Kody.

And based on what Kody said on this episode, he wishes he never walked down the aisle with Meri in the first place.

“Meri and I had a very fast courtship. I didn’t know who I was marrying,” he confessed for the first time on air, implying he regrets even being Meri’s husband and adding of how he’s felt around her for awhile at this point:

“I am just done with hearing how I am wrong.”

Back in 2015, Meri tried to date someone else — and ended up being caught in a catfishing scandal.

But Kody has now made it clear that his problems with Meri go far beyond that one humiliating incident.

“My question in my life is how do I have a relationship with somebody that after knowing for years, I don’t want a relationship because of the hurt and the struggle and stuff. And I’m not blaming Meri here,” he said.

“I’m just saying we’re trying to heal a very very deep wound in a sick body and it’s a challenge.”

Added Kody in a confessional:

“This struggle that I’m having is way deeper than the catfishing experience. The catfishing was really just a wake-up call for Meri and I.

“Our problem ran much deeper than that and it’s probably why we led up to why the catfishing ever happened.”

That’s actually an accurate assessment.

But so is this:

It sounds as if these problems have only worsened in the years since, and it definitely sounds like Meri has to finally get up the courage to leave this unhealthy marital arrangement.

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Schoolboy, 15, turns bedroom into PPE factory

Schoolboy, 15, turns bedroom into PPE factory using the 3D printer he got for Christmas to make face visors for NHS medics on the coronavirus frontline

  • Harry Cooper from Middlesborough is handing out the safety equipment for free
  • Harry has been raising money for the materials he needs with a funding page
  • He’s already taken over 100 orders from key workers like health care assistants 

A 15-year-old schoolboy has turned his bedroom into a factory churning out face visors for staff on the frontline of the coronavirus fight.

Harry Cooper from Middlesborough is making them on a 3D printer he got for Christmas and is handing out the safety equipment free of charge.

Harry has been raising money for the materials he needs with a funding page so that he can continue manufacturing the desperately needed PPE.

He’s already taken over 100 orders from key workers such as health care assistants, community workers, dentists and shop assistants.

Harry Cooper (pictured) from Middlesborough is making them on a 3D printer he got for Christmas and is handing out the safety equipment free of charge

Harry said: ‘I have the printers and have been using them to make the bands that go around your head. I enjoy making things and like a challenge so it was a no brainer to help key workers out at the same time.

‘We have about 100 going out to community carers and care homes. I just wanted to do my bit.’ 

His mother Donna, 46, a primary school teacher from Middlesbrough, North Yorkshire, said: ‘He was like a dog with a bone when he realised he could help with the shortage of protective equipment.


Harry (pictured wearing one of visors he made) has been raising money for the materials he needs with a funding page so that he can continue manufacturing the desperately needed PPE

‘He did his research and when he figured out he could make visors for people he jumped at it.’

Harry plans to produce three visors every 39 minutes with the use of three printers – one which was donated by a well-wisher.

Harry will have his joiner father Nigel, 52, on hand to help with packaging along wither brother Alfie, 12 and sister Emily, 19.

Donna added: ‘We are just waiting for materials to arrive and then it’s just going to be non stop production of them.

‘Nigel and I have agreed to help deliver them to whoever needs one locally, so it’s going to be all hands on deck soon. We all just want to help in any way we can, so this is our contribution.’

Paperboy Harry has also written a note to each one of his customers to say he will shop for their essentials if they need him.

‘He’s such a good lad,’ Donna added. ‘We are immensely proud of him and will do everything we can to support him.’ 

Harry will have his joiner father Nigel, 52, on hand to help with packaging along wither brother Alfie, 12 and sister Emily, 19. Pictured: part of the visors

Public Health England say that any clinician working in a hospital, primary care or community care setting within two metres of a suspected or confirmed coronavirus COVID-19 patient should wear an apron, gloves, surgical mask and eye protection.   

Eye and face protection provides protection against contamination to the eyes from respiratory droplets.  

Government advice says this can be achieved using a surgical mask with an integrated visor, a full face shield or visor, polycarbonate safety spectacles or equivalent.  

His mother Donna, 46, (pictured) a primary school teacher from Middlesbrough, North Yorkshire, said: ‘He was like a dog with a bone when he realised he could help with the shortage of protective equipment’

Their guidance adds that regular corrective spectacles are not considered adequate eye protection. 

Much like the mouth and nose, the eye contains a mucous membrane, via which the virus has a passage to the rest of the body.

The virus is most likely to enter in through these membranes after people touch an infected surface before touching their face.

Paperboy Harry (pictured) has also written a note to each one of his customers to say he will shop for their essentials if they need him

Harry is not the only one who has been creating visors to help health care workers. 

Daniel Mooney, 32, who works for a computer game company in Dublin has also been using his 3D printer to make visors. 

His group of five volunteers can print about 75 protective visors each day, he told The Irish Times.  

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When is the Liar season 2 finale?

LIAR season two comes to an end tonight (April 6) and after weeks of guessing fans will finally find out who killed Andrew Earlham.

The whodunit storyline has gripped viewers, as the mystery surrounding the rapist's death unfolds episode after episode.

How many episodes are their in Liar season 2

Liar is back on tonight (April 6, 2020) for episode six.

You can catch it from 9pm ITV.

But fans who miss it need not despair, it will be available to stream on ITV Hub shortly after.

Season two is running for six episodes.

When is the Liar season 2 finale?

The show's big season finale airs tonight (April 6, 2020).

You can catch the action from 9pm on ITV.

Who’s in the cast of Liar season 2?

The second series has an impressive cast which includes:

  • Joanne Froggatt as Laura
  • Ioan Gruffudd as Andrew
  • Katherine Kelly as DI Inspector Karen Renton
  • Zoe Tapper as Katy Sutcliffe
  • Danny Webb as DS Rory Maxwell
  • Amy Nuttall as Winnie
  • Howard Charles as Carl Peterson

What happens on Liar season two?

The show picks up three weeks after an arrest warrant had been issued for Andrew for the shock sexual assault on 19 women.

His body is then discovered in the Kent marshes and brand-new Detective Inspector Karen Renton (Katherine Kelly) and her team are determined to get to the bottom of things.

The second series, which features flashbacks, will reveal who murdered Andrew and why.

It picks the story up after Andrew’s body is found. An obvious murder suspect is Laura.

This theory seems to hold some weight, as in the first episode of the show, Laura is arrested for Andrew's murder.

What happened in Liar season one?

Just when we all thought that serial rapist Andrew Earlham was going to go down for his criminal acts, the finale had us discover that he’d been murdered.

In the closing scene of the final episode, Andrew is seen half-submerged in the muddy marshes, with his clothes soaking wet, his throat slit and blood on his shirt.

Andrew was notably missing for weeks – he disappeared on the night Laura Nielson found out new evidence that would have seen him face time behind bars.

Video footage of Andrew raping a 17-year-old is obtained by Laura, but by the time police rushed to arrest him, he’d already done a vanishing act.

Where is Liar filmed?

Liar is filmed around London, Kent and Essex.

The bulk of the shooting was done in the idyllic seaside town of Deal in Kent.

The town's famous pier has become the backdrop for the series.

Meanwhile, stunning marshland, can be found in Tollesbury, Essex.

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Ten public transport workers including eight bus drivers die of coronavirus in London – The Sun

TEN transport workers in London have tragically died after contracting coronavirus, it was revealed today.

London Mayor Sadiq Khan says eight people who work on buses and a train driver are among the dead.

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One of the bus driver has been named online as Shaheed Norman Rashid.

A relative posted on Facebook: "He was working during this whole corona pandemic.

"He was the number 8 bus driver, helping other key workers get to work, risking his own life so others can go to work and bring food to the table.

"I want people to recognise him as a hero as well as NHS staff and all frontline key workers like police, firefighters, doctors and nurses.

"We lost a gem in our family. A gem that will never be found again.

"Norman, you will be missed by everyone that you met. Your smile lit up the room.

"Caring, kind and warm are just some of the words I can find to describe you."

News of the tragic deaths comes just a day after trade union officials said five bus drivers had lost their lives to the deadly illness.

Now drivers in the capital say they're "all scared" as they don't believe they've got adequate personal protective equipment (PPE) to do their jobs safely.

James, a south London bus driver who has worked for Transport for London for 11 years, told Sky News he's a friend of one of people to die.

'WE DON'T HAVE MASKS OR GLOVES'

James said: "I used to work with him at a garage in southeast London.

"He was a great guy, always a joker, loved his wife and daughter very much."

He said there's a lack of care for staff on the frontline, and has been forced to self-isolate after contracting coronavirus symptoms.

"Buses aren't being deep-cleaned – we can see they're not even being touched," he said.

"Drivers aren't being given masks or even gloves now because we're being told to wash our hands multiple times a day."

Mr Khan yesterday said "lives really do depend" on people following government rules to stay at home, following the deaths of five bus workers who tested positive for COVID-19.

He blasted commuters who refuse to stay at home and pack onto the crowded bus and tube services still operating on a reduced schedule.

MAYOR WAS SLAMMED BY FRONTLINE STAFF

Mr Khan decided to run a reduced service for trains and buses across the capital during the Covid-19 pandemic.

Pictures taken since the lockdown began have shown workers crammed onto the captain's transport network.

Hero NHS workers slammed the decision, accusing Mr Khan of "herding" workers into packed public transport.

The Mayor has said he can't put more trains on because a third of TfL's staff has gone off sick during the pandemic.

'I'M ABSOLUTELY DEVASTATED'

His decision has resulted in NHS workers claiming they are more concerned about travelling to work than treating Covid-19 patients in hospital.

The issue sparked a fierce exchange between Mr Khan and Health Secretary Matt Hancock, who demanded more trains be put on to prevent crammed carriages.

Mr Khan said he's "absolutely devastated" to hear of the drivers' deaths – and tweeted that "lives depended" on people following the government rules to stay at home.

He said: "I have been clear that our incredible public transport staff – on the buses, tubes, trams and trains – are critical workers, making a heroic effort to allow our NHS staff to save more lives.

"But we need to play our part too and that means fewer Londoners using the public transport network.

"Please follow the rules. Stay at home and do not use public transport unless it is absolutely unavoidable."

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Unite regional secretary Peter Kavanagh said drivers are doing a "heroic job" getting key workers to their jobs.

He said representatives are working with officials to ensure buses are being deep-cleaned, screens around drivers are being sealed and hand sanitiser is provided for all.

"I have been in direct contact with the Mayor of London who shares our view that bus drivers must be fully protected," he said.

"My officers are holding daily meetings with TfL, exploring further safety improvements and we are absolutely committed to doing everything in our power to make the driving of buses safe during this unprecedented crisis.

DEATHS ARE A TRAGEDY

"We are also calling on the Government to make provisions for transport workers in terms of personal protective equipment."

Gareth Powell, TfL's managing director for surface transport, said: "We have been extremely saddened to hear of the recent passing of our colleagues in the bus industry.

"Our thoughts are with their families and friends and we have been offering the bus companies for whom they worked every support possible.

"The safety of our staff and customers is our absolute priority.

"Our clear message to Londoners is simple – the transport network is only for critical workers who need to make absolutely essential journeys. Please, everyone else, stay at home, don't travel and save lives."

Today, health chiefs said there have been 4,897 deaths of people diagnosed with Covid-19 in England – but with the latest victims in Wales and Scotland, the death toll for the UK as a whole has now broken the 5,000 mark.

This doesn't include at least 40 further coronavirus deaths registered outside hospital

NHS England confirmed the latest victims were aged between 35 and 106 – with 15 having no underlying health conditions.

Prime Minister Boris Johnson was admitted to hospital last night after struggling to recover from the virus.

He is reported to have been given oxygen.

The PM, 55, was admitted ten days after testing positive for the killer bug as he continued to have “persistent symptoms” – thought to be a high temperature.

Aides became increasingly worried about his health as Mr Johnson continued to show symptoms more than a week after he tested positive.






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I know, I know, I know: The bliss of Bill Withers, on repeat

Washington: "I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know."

If you've never heard how Bill Withers came to cast that 52-word spell in the middle of Ain't No Sunshine, it's a good story. It was the spring of 1971 and the studio tape was rolling – but Withers hadn't finished writing the lyrics, so he improvised to fill space and eat the clock. Before he could grab a pen to complete the verse, his producers had been convinced that they'd heard magic and urged him to keep the take. With a shrug for the ages, Withers consented.

Singer-songwriter Bill Withers.Credit:AP

Revisit that moment with this little anecdote in your ears, and you might hear tiny flickers of rushing and reticence in Withers' bedrock voice. He's messing around, passing time. But as Withers carried Ain't No Sunshine in his pocket from stage to stage in the years that followed, he learned to slow down and sink all the way into those 52 words. In the studio, he was spinning his wheels. In concert, he was venturing into his deepest self.

For Withers, who died on Tuesday at 81, repetition was central to his songcraft from the start. The West Virginia native got a famously late break, having spent his late 20s doing repetitive work in California's airplane factories, reciting musical ideas over and over in his head so as not to forget them before the end of his shift. When he officially entered the record business at age 31, he was wise enough to be properly repulsed by it, and he resolved to approach his songwriting in a broad-minded way.

"You can make songs about trucks, ducks," Withers told a Dutch television crew in 2011. "Everything you could possibly think or feel or imagine, whether you're happy or homicidal or whatever – there's probably a song for it."

Withers achieved staggering emotional breadth with such simple techniques, jotting lyrical thought-bubbles down on scraps of paper, then meditating on them until their durability felt worthy of a song. It made him a patient editor who refused to be confined by whatever the world normally expects from a love song. He wrote love songs about family (Grandma's Hands). He wrote love songs for his friends (Lean on Me). He wrote love songs to the face across the pillow that doubled as love songs to existence (Lovely Day). If you feel as if you could listen to them a thousand times, it's because Withers sounds like he sang them to himself a thousand times before putting them into circulation.

I could probably stand to hear Lovely Day ten thousand more times. Listen to how Withers stretches the word "day" across the sky like a rainbow while a backgrounded voice plays the role of his subconscious: "Lovely day, lovely day, lovely day, love-ly-day."

Withers is exalting the universe, yes. But he's talking to himself, too. Just like on Ain't No Sunshine. When we sing along, the repetition in his music becomes a mantra that we use to convince ourselves that this life – in all its loneliness and bliss – is real.

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Pink: My 3-Year-Old Son and I Tested Positive for Coronavirus

On the mend. Pink shared that she and her 3-year-old son, Jameson, tested positive for coronavirus but have since recovered.

“Two weeks ago my three-year-old son, Jameson, and I were showing symptoms of COVID-19. Fortunately, our primary care physician had access to tests and I tested positive,” the “Just Give Me a Reason” singer, 40, wrote via Instagram on Friday, April 3. “My family was already sheltering at home and continued to do so for the last two weeks following the instruction of our doctor. Just a few days ago, we were re-tested and are now thankfully negative.”

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Two weeks ago my three-year old son, Jameson, and I are were showing symptoms of COVID-19. Fortunately, our primary care physician had access to tests and I tested positive. My family was already sheltering at home and we continued to do so for the last two weeks following the instruction of our doctor. Just a few days ago we were re-tested and are now thankfully negative. It is an absolute travesty and failure of our government to not make testing more widely accessible. This illness is serious and real. People need to know that the illness affects the young and old, healthy and unhealthy, rich and poor, and we must make testing free and more widely accessible to protect our children, our families, our friends and our communities. In an effort to support the healthcare professionals who are battling on the frontlines every day, I am donating $500,000 to the Temple University Hospital Emergency Fund in Philadelphia in honor of my mother, Judy Moore, who worked there for 18 years in the Cardiomyopathy and Heart Transplant Center. Additionally, I am donating $500,000 to the City of Los Angeles Mayor’s Emergency COVID-19 Crisis Fund. THANK YOU to all of our healthcare professionals and everyone in the world who are working so hard to protect our loved ones. You are our heroes! These next two weeks are crucial: please stay home. Please. Stay. Home.❤️

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Pink added that she is donating $1 million to coronavirus relief efforts. The “So What” songstress pledged $500,000 to the Temple University Hospital Emergency Fund in Philadelphia, in honor of her mother, Judy Moore, who worked at the facility for 18 years. Pink also donated $5000,000 to the City of Los Angeles Mayor’s Emergency COVID-19 crisis fund.

“It is an absolute travesty and failure of our government to not make testing more widely accessible,” she said. “This illness is serious and real. People need to know that the illness affects the young and old, healthy and unhealthy, rich and poor, and we must make testing free and more widely accessible to protect our children, our families, our friends and our communities.”

The Pennsylvania native and her husband, Carey Hart, share Jameson and their 8-year-old daughter, Willow. Pink shared via Instagram on March 14 that she tried to create a routine for her family while they are self-quarantining amid the pandemic.

The “Try” singer set aside time for a “morning walk if we can, yoga if it’s raining, academic time, creative time” and lunch to bring a sense of normalcy to their days. 

“This is a crazy time, but we have each other so let’s figure out a way to talk to each other and connect and be kind,” Pink said at the time. “I’ll do my best to be kind too when [my kids are] not fighting. I love you all. We’re gonna through this. If you can, stay home. No playdates. Just stay home please.”

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“Portrait Of A Lady On Fire” Is The Queer Romance We Need Right Now

Adèle Haenel as Héloïse and Noémie Merlant as Marianne in Portrait of a Lady on Fire.

Céline Sciamma’s Portrait of a Lady on Fire is eerily suited to a viewing in lockdown. The filmmaker’s 2019 masterpiece, a lesbian love story set in 18th-century France and now available to watch on Hulu, is one of a number of films to hit streaming ahead of originally planned digital release dates — a blessing to all of us trapped at home right now.

Marianne (Noémie Merlant) arrives on a remote island off the coast of Brittany at the request of the Comtesse (Valeria Golino), who’s commissioned Marianne to paint a portrait of her daughter, Héloïse (Adèle Haenel). Héloïse had been called home from a Benedictine convent because her sister, who’d been betrothed to a Milanese nobleman, recently fell from the cliffs to her death in a suspected suicide; Héloïse must now marry the Italian in her sister’s place. But before Marianne’s arrival, Héloïse had already spoiled her mother’s plans to have her portrait painted and sent to Milan for the prospective husband’s appraisal, because she refused to sit for a male artist. Now, Marianne must try to study Héloïse in the guise of acting as her walking companion to then paint her in secret.

“It’d be tempting, and not entirely off-point, to read Portrait of a Lady on Fire as a deconstruction of the male gaze,” Bilge Ebiri wrote in his Vulture review. After all, once Marianne is dropped by boat on the rocky shores, men disappear from the narrative entirely, at least until Marianne is ferried back to Parisian society toward the end. “But the film isn’t nearly so schematic, or simplistic; it exists not to undermine an idea but to make us see a world anew.”

I was certainly tempted to read the film, at least in part, as a repudiation of male directors’ approaches to lesbian storytelling, especially in arthouse and prestige cinema. Where Park Chan-wook’s otherwise spectacular erotic thriller The Handmaiden deploys a number of sensationalized and rather obscenely fluid-heavy sex scenes, Sciamma forgoes graphic depictions of intercourse entirely (save for a delicious shot of the women rubbing a hallucinegetic drug into each other’s armpits). Over the past decade, well-regarded films about women who love women, directed by men — from Abdellatif Kechiche’s Blue Is the Warmest Color to Olivier Assayas’s Clouds of Sils Maria to Todd Haynes’ Carol (beloved by many lesbians but, alas, not this one) — have to varying degrees expressed a breathless wonder at the beguiling sexiness of two femmes getting it on. The characters are not so much real, fleshed-out women as they are archetypes, or foils of each other, or overwrought artistic metaphors. In Blue, for example, the leads’ naked bodies are graphically matched with statues in museums; a man at a party, seemingly a stand-in for the director himself, waxes poetic about the mysteries of the female orgasm. Women have been male artists’ models, as well as their (uncredited) partners or collaborators, throughout much of human history, so two women together offers male creators still more opportunities for inspiration (and, of course, titillation).

But Ebiri is right. Sciamma is not rejecting the male gaze so much as she’s offering us an entirely new way of looking. Her film isn’t in conversation with those male directors’ works; Portrait is a universe unto itself. In interviews, Sciamma has refused to dignify certain male directors’ substandard efforts with the respect required of legitimate cultural criticism, even the harshest kinds: “I don’t give a fuck,” she told the Guardian when asked about Kechiche’s controversial film. “I don’t give a shit about it.” (She and Haenel recently walked out of the Cesar Awards ceremony, the Oscars of France, when the top prize was awarded to convicted rapist Roman Polanski.)

Portrait is entirely of Sciamma’s creation. She wrote and directed the project, all the while collaborating with Haenel, who plays Héloïse, and with whom she was, until recently, in a romantic relationship. Unlike male auteurs who might push their actors to unethical limits and glean all the resulting glory, Sciamma considers filmmaking — all artwork — as “co-creation.” She noted in the Guardian interview that so many women have been relegated to the role of “muse” in the annals of history, even when they themselves were artists in their own right.

As Héloïse and Marianne fall in lust and love, Héloïse pushes her portraitist to consider that she’s not the only one capable of creation. In one extraordinary scene, Héloïse urges Sophie (Luàna Bajrami), her young maid, with whom the women have grown close in the temporary absence of the Comtesse, to help her pose for a painting. Earlier that day, Marianne and Héloïse had taken Sophie to get an abortion from a local herbalist, when Héloïse had encouraged Marianne not to look away. Now, by the light of the fire, Héloïse and Sophie re-create the abortion, Héloïse’s hand up Sophie’s skirt, while Marianne commits the scene to paper.

Though men and their dangerous, undeserved powers hover ominously just outside the trio’s idyll — the faceless, nameless stranger who got Sophie pregnant; the man Héloïse is supposed to marry, sight unseen; Marianne’s artist father, from whom she’ll inherit the family business, and under whose name she’s sometimes forced to submit paintings — the women wield their own powers of generation and destruction. The first time Héloïse and Marianne meet, Héloïse sprints out toward the cliffs and stops just short of tumbling over the edge, as her sister had before her. “I’ve dreamt of that for years,” she says. “To die?” Marianne asks. “To run,” Héloïse says.

One night, after Héloïse reads Ovid’s “Orpheus and Eurydice” aloud to Marianne and Sophie, the three women debate about why Orpheus, upon leaving Hades, looked back at his lover Eurydice — the one thing he was expressly told not to do — thus dooming her forever to the underworld. Héloïse wonders if maybe Eurydice told Orpheus to look back; perhaps she played a role in her own end. Marianne thinks differently: “He doesn’t make the lover’s choice, but the poet’s. He chooses the memory of her.” Later, when Marianne and Héloïse are forced to part themselves, neither is without agency: Like her imagined version of Eurydice, Héloïse encourages Marianne to look back at her — and like her Orpheus, Marianne chooses not to regret, but to remember.

Read in the context of the queer death drive, a concept coined by the critic Lee Edelman in his 2004 polemic, both Marianne and Héloïse — and Sophie, most obviously, with her abortion — inadvertently or otherwise reject a politics of “reproductive futurism.” Edelman argues that the queer refusal to engage in the endless capitalist march toward some undetermined future, for the sake of some as-yet nonexistent child, is the essence of queer jouissance: pleasure, delight, ecstasy. For Marianne and Héloïse, as has been the case for so many lesbian couples throughout history, there simply cannot be a future. But that doesn’t make their romance, however brief, any less passionate or profound. In fact, their shared love for the pleasures of sex and drugs, for art and music (a Vivaldi piece is played twice, in different contexts, to revelatory effects), is what will always connect them, long after they see each other for the last time.

Sciamma baffled readers when she told Vox she was inspired in part by James Cameron’s ’90s behemoth, Titanic, not only because it’s “a love story with equality and with emancipation,” but also “because it’s totally queer.” Though straight people were confused, as usual, all lesbian Titanic-heads know that Jack and Rose’s affair is actually as gay as a seemingly hetero love story gets. Though it’s a tragedy — which is the case for all too many queer movies, even today — Titanic imbues so much power in the gift of memory, of treasuring human connection and joy and pleasure, of being truly seen by another person, that you can just as easily read the film as a story of love’s triumphs against the ever-present backdrop of pain and despair.

Every love story, after all, ends in tragedy. It’s just a matter of when. You need only look to the surprising, gorgeous romance tucked into HBO’s Watchmen to learn that lesson. There are no guarantees. No happy endings. There’s only the moments we have right in front of us — and the best and the worst of our memories. It feels like a particularly poignant, if heartbreaking, takeaway for our current moment, when any future at all seems terribly uncertain. But hopefully that just makes our love, however fleeting, however finite, all the sweeter. ●

  • Shannon Keating is a senior culture writer and editor for BuzzFeed News and is based in New York.

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Nicole Nafziger: I Quit My Job to Be With Azan!

Even though Nicole Nafziger was mom-shamed for “abandoning” May, she actually left her 6-year-old in her mother’s very capable hands.

Now, an inside source is dishing on some further details, from May to the job that Nicole left behind before her trip.

In Touch Weekly did some digging into where things stand in Nicole’s life while she is seemingly stranded in Morocco by the pandemic.

“She left her job at Starbucks before she went away,” an insider shares.

The source adds: “She’s not worried about working right now.”

“She’s seeing this as a nice vacation for herself,” the insider characterizes.

May was of course left safely with Nicole’s mom, Robbalee, and her stepdad for what was supposed to be a two week trip.

“May is being homeschooled by Nicole’s mom and stepdad right now,” a second insider says.

“Of course, May’s missing her mom,” the source observes.

The insider adds: “And Nicole is missing her [daughter], as well.”

“She’s still staying in touch with her family,” this second source says of Nicole.

“And,” the insider shares, Nicole has been “keeping in touch with May.”

Nicole apparently does this by “FaceTiming with her almost daily.”

It’s good that technology allows people to keep in touch in real time, even with a vast ocean between them.

Nicole was supposed to spend a fortnight with Azan in Morocco, seeing each other in person for the first time in years.

The coronavirus pandemic has much of the world on a sensible lockdown.

While Nicole arguably had multiple options for an evactuation flight to get home, she does not appear to have returned yet.

If she has not left Morocco in another week, she will have been been gone from her Florida home for a full month.

Fans have asked Nicole’s mother for her real thoughts on Nicole’s now-extended vacay in Morocco.

“She is in charge of her own life,” Robbalee recently told commenters on social media, “and has to make her own decisions.”

With an air of resignation, she commented: “I can only guide her to a better one.”

“The rest is up to her,” Robbalee stated. “I love her no matter what.”

Robbalee also reminded fans that they don’t actually know what she has or has not said to her daughter.

90 Day Fiance is a reality show, not a documentary.

Additionally, she chastized fans who highlight Azan’s nationality, though she did effectively describe Azan as a jobless layabout.

In the same breath, Robbalee reminded Nicole’s critics that there’s no shortage of dudes of that caliber in the US.

Nicole’s first days back in Morocco were full of updates, including snaps of her with Azan.

She also sang the praises of Moroccan tajine, a savory stew featuring meat, vegetables, and fruit.

In recent days, she has been largely radio silent on social media — in part because she can’t go out to eat or photograph the sights.

We hope that she is having a good time and that she makes it home safely.

Nicole Nafziger: What Her Mom REALLY Thinks About Azan … and Their QuarantineStart Gallery

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I Started Using a Bidet in Quarantine, and My Butt Is Never Going Back

There’s a singular form of enlightenment a man experiences the first time his butthole is blasted by an icy-cold jet of water. It’s a baptism of sorts, allowing him to transcend the naiveté of his past and set off on a new path toward self-discovery. If cleanliness is, indeed, next to godliness, then I’d like to believe our Lord and Savior uses a bidet.

When I told my wife that I planned to install the TUSHY Classic bidet attachment in our bathroom, she looked at me first with bemusement, which quickly gave way to grave concern. This was toward the beginning of self-quarantine and her patience with my cooped-up sense of humor was already wearing thin. “How does it work?” she asked, her voice teetering between abject terror and morbid curiosity. “More importantly…why?”

I had anticipated her skepticism and rattled off a list of prepared reasons why now was the right time for a bidet: no more fist fights with strangers at Costco for the last pack of Charmin Ultra; we’d properly protect our butts from disease and infection; if we really gave a damn about climate change, we’d acknowledge that bidets are better for the planet. But my most important reason, which seemed to convince her, was “Why not?”

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Installing the bidet attachment was a cinch, and I did a great job reading the directions while my wife (who’s handy) did all the actual work. TUSHY’s classic model fits in under the toilet seat, and connects to the same water source that you use to flush your commode. The controls look sort-of like the front of a stereo, with a dial you turn to increase the water pressure of the bidet blast, and also to self-clean the nozzle. There’s also a switch that allows you to control the angle of the nozzle, which is kind of like playing one of those carnival games with the water gun and the bullseye, except the bullseye is your butt crack.

TUSHY makes two models, and I have the more basic “Classic.” The main distinction is their slightly pricier “Spa” model includes temperature controls, while the Classic is only ice-cold. And to be completely honest, that frigid laser-beam straight to the tuchus has become a treasured part of my morning routine. It’s refreshing, it’s exhilarating, and it just feels cleaner. You know that feeling you have after a really rejuvenating shower? It’s like that, but on the dirtiest part of your body. I only need to use two squares of toilet paper each time I go, so we haven’t burned through our modest TP reserves like so many other people.

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I used to scoff at bidets like so many others, dismissing it as an exotic novelty. Using a bidet felt oddly… un-American? But whether it’s dipping fries in mayonnaise, universal healthcare, or cleaning up post-No. 2 with a torrent of water, I’ve realized there are so many areas where America is behind the curve in relation to the rest of the world.

But none of these traditions are written in stone. We, the people, can choose our destiny when it comes to rectal hygiene. I’m a Bidet Boy now—and I’m never going back.

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Why Fans Think PartyNextDoor is Talking About Kehlani in 'Savage Anthem'

Some artists are deciding to release their new albums early – or on time – in the wake of coronavirus quarantines, giving fans something to listen to while practicing self-isolation. Last week, PartyNextDoor blessed fans with PARTYMOBILE, his fourth studio album.

The long-awaited project comes four years after P3 and has 15 tracks, including “Believe It” featuring Rihanna. Rihanna’s presence earned the song a collective round of cheers.

But since most PND listeners have already absorbed and digested the whole album, there’s been time to discuss each track. One of the others getting attention is “Savage Anthem,” and it’s causing fans to speculate that PartyNextDoor is talking about his ex-girlfriend, Kehlani.

A history of Kehlani and PartyNextDoor’s relationship

For those who are unfamiliarwith Kehlani, she’s an R&B singer-songwriter with a string of hits thatinclude “The Way,” “Crzy,” “Gangsta” (from Suicide Squad soundtrack),and “Nights Like This.” She and PartyNextDoor dated on and off between 2013 and2016, eventually breaking things off for good.

Drama ensued when Kehlani started dating NBA player KyrieIrving early in 2016. PartyNextDoor posted a photo on Instagram of Kehlani’s tattooedhand while lying in bed, with a caption that read, “After all her shenanigans, still got the r&b singer backin my bed.” This led people to accuse her of cheating on Irving.

Social media backlash against the songstress took such atoll that she was admitted to a hospital for attempting to take her own life. Followingthat, PND did an interview with RollingStone expressing remorse for the post.

Kehlani later shared that she and Irving broke up prior toher reconnecting with her first love, PartyNextDoor, and no one cheated.

Why people think PartyNextDoor’s ‘Savage Anthem’ is aboutKehlani

The lyrics to “Savage Anthem” are not subtle, and they’vesparked analyses from fans, reviewers, and people such as Joe Budden. In thesong, PND sings about how he doesn’t care about being unfaithful, dirty, andcallous. He croons, “Don’t hold your breath, don’t wait on my love.”

But two lines have many believing it references his formerrelationship with Kehlani. Fans think “I heard number 2 is your man now / Don’tmind me being number 2 now” refers to Irving’s jersey number when he played forthe Cleveland Cavaliers in 2016.

“Packed up and went back to Oakland / Finally it’s out inthe open” makes mention of Kehlani’s hometown of Oakland, California. On socialmedia, people dug deep to tie the song’s lyrics to her.

How Kehlani responded to the speculation

With so much chatter on Twitter and other spaces on the internet,it was inevitable that fans would tag Kehlani in hopes that she would commenton the song. She listened to it, because she finally replied in a now-deletedtweet.

There’s another line in the PND song that goes, “I broke heroff in the livin’ room / There is a smell in the livin’ room” which prompted Kehlanito write this to a fan:

“Because Isee you’re tryna go viral and this is hella annoying, this is a true storyabout smelling the OTHER woman thus confirming the cheating, but go off tho fr”

The tweet was captured in a screenshot before being deleted,and PartyNextDoor has yet to comment on who he’s singing about. It’s been leftup to the internet.

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